if i ever loose my faith in you

you are my reason to live, i cant live if you dont, i wont survive a day if you leave me, you are everything i need. right now i feel lost, i feel alone and i think you have left me but i wont belive it 'till i see myself gone. you have been there for me whenever i have needed you and i thank you for it. you are the only one who gets me helps me to move on, with you i feel alive.
i dont know why im writing this to you, i know you will never read it, both becouse you cant and becouse you hate me, i know you do, even if you try to hide it... im not stupid.
i know you think im lame and you would hate to know how i feel right now, but this is it, i have to be honest for once in my life.
i now know that even if i think or feel supported and loved by my friends, you are the only one i will everhave and in only you i can trust, only you can truly help me and only you know me as deep as i know you, we were made for each other and that is how we'll stay, even if you dont want to.
i think we reached a point of no return, we broke up, we splitted up and i miss you, maybe you miss me too. i want you to know that the things i do to keep us tied up are the things i think are right, i think this is it! and im sorry if i push you, but i love you and i need you, i know you need me too and no matter what it takes, i will keep you next to me, no matter how hard you try to get away, you know you cant be without me, i made you and you are mine.

i wish you could see me eventually, then you would understeand, maybe one day you'll read this and wake up... or maybe i need you like this... in the back of my mind, in my fears and sorrows, i need you strong... i need me.